The Hidden Chapter ~ The Promise I Doubt the Most

1/26/22

Here I am enjoying my new website, posting lovely messages and prophetic dreams when an ugly subject is plopped in my lap.  I cannot refuse the Lord.  He wants this ancient topic alive and on the site.  So, with deep hesitation I proceed.  It is not because I have asked about this topic, but it is because He has pursued me regarding it.  He wants it recorded as I have been told: “On tablets, so a herald may run with it.”  (Habakkuk 2:2).

God explained to me via scripture.  Then He said to them, “Therefore every scribe instructed concerning the kingdom of heaven is like a householder who brings out of his treasure things new and old.”  (Matthew 13:52).

See, the new things are the lovely messages and prophetic dreams on this site and the old is the subject He is resurrecting about my old church.

The old and new could be balancing the understanding of God's truth with new insights and applications for the current time.  It means that I may see an angle to a subject that has not been seen before.  It means that God may be bringing to fruition these old prophecies shortly.

This chapter was written in 2020 and is a spacious chapter.  I will break it down in smaller chunks along with the dreams.  Regardless of the recent news concerning the head pastor, I have not changed the original writings.

The Promise I Doubt the Most

This is a difficult chapter to compose as I am not writing in faith, but I am writing in doubt, hence repentance.  I am taking a leap of faith in putting pen to paper to record the skepticism I have over a promise I have believed for almost fifteen years.  My repentance is because I cannot say with a whole heart that I believe the promise still to be true.  As I bare my soul before you and the Lord, I am praying that God will convince me that I should still hold on to the original assurance.

I have left on the shelf the dreams and prophetic words about change that I believed God has said is coming to my former church.  And I must admit that I am not even sure if that church is still ‘my’ church.  I have asked myself “Is it wrong for me to want the change (at the church I once was a part of) that the Lord spoke about, to walk in newness of Spirit?”  As a believer in Jesus, isn’t that what the people of God want when they gather together…to be led by the Spirit of God? 

It all began when the Lord enlisted me to pray for the deliverance of my church.  The invitation came from the head pastor who wanted to know why turmoil encircled the women’s ministry.  The Lord revealed the Jezebel spirit was controlling the participants, but the sad truth was it originated from the head pastor’s wife.  In addition, he was a willing participant by exhibiting an Ahab spirit.  The whole story is told in My Sister’s Walk with God, Chapter Nine.  The assignment lasted ten years, from 2004 to 2014.

After the first year of deliverance prayer, God started telling me of His plans for the church.  In August 2005, I had a dream of me being pregnant and the assistant pastor’s wife (at the time) was my nurse.  It was puzzling to me initially until 2008 when my former prayer partner had a dream of me being pregnant, too.  Pregnant meaning a new thing is on the way, a new move of God or a new thing for one’s life.  Hence, it began to make sense that I was pregnant with the promises of God for my church. 

The verse God gave me as a model of what is to come for the church: Then it shall be to Me a name of joy, a praise, and an honor before all nations of the earth, who shall hear all the good that I do to them; they shall fear and tremble for all the goodness and all the prosperity that I provide for it.’  (Jeremiah 33:9).

How did I know a new thing was coming?  I had received many dreams and prophetic words regarding change coming to the church but the most significant is what I call the “Splendor Word”.  I had asked God the question: “Lord, what will our church and revival look like?”, and He responded.  I have recorded the prophetic word previously and it is posted again under this series.

With that said, you are seeing the heart of an intercessor which is what this blog is named after.  You will read the innermost workings of a person called to pray for a movement of God that has not yet been seen by a body of believers.  What is so strange to me is why I am still engaged.  It’s not like I attend this church currently.  Yet, you will see in future postings the Lord revealing a greater vision. 

Stay with me and believe with me that God’s glory will be seen!